I'd Give Anything To Hold My Daughter Once More
Photo Credit: Nikoleta Allinová
After a miscarriage in November 2019, I was more than happy to find out I was pregnant again in April 2020.
My pregnancy was absolutely perfect without any complications.
But on December 30, I woke up with really strong and regular contractions. I woke my fiancé up and we rushed to the hospital.
Our little girl was born at 6:35 a.m., which was less than an hour after our arrival.
My labor was as perfect as the whole pregnancy except for the silence that filled the room.
The nurses took my little honey away.
After my questions about why she didn’t cry, the doctor informed me that she had cried in the hallway. I believed him because I thought I was paralyzed by the pain and simply didn’t hear her.
I told my fiancé, family, and friends know that SHE IS HERE, but that they took her to do some examinations.
After five hours of waiting to see her, I knew something was wrong.
Suddenly my fiancé came to the room and his footsteps were followed by the doctor’s.
The doctor said “I am sorry I was not able to save your daughter.”
My world stopped.
My daughter. My everything.
She was so beautiful. I held her for a few minutes and as I was looking at her beautiful face, I asked the nurses and my fiancé to wake her up.
I would give everything to hold her at least one more time.
The diagnosis was a defect in the interventricular septum. She was supposed to become an angel from the time she existed.
We love you our little angel, Nina️.
We love you to the moon and back.
Thank you @nikoletall for sharing your story. Shared with permission.
Stillbirth is devastating and can leave loss parents feeling isolated. They Were Still Born beautifully gives voice to parents who have experienced stillbirth, while honoring the little lives gone too soon.
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